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so jennie showed me this stupid test today
and it's got me fitted right down to it .
like no joke.

look at this:

You are constantly trying to make a favourable impression and endeavouring to be considered as that someone 'special'. You are pretty good at using various tactics and strategies that give the impression that you are in control. Maybe you are - but you are constantly watching to see whether or not your endeavours are truly appreciated. Be careful... just as 'you' may be endeavouring to influence others, 'they' may indeed be influencing you.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

it's so amazing.

so my days are... lonely.
lol, it's funny how you can feel lonely with so many people around you.
but i feel just that. lonely.
like i dont really belong anywhere.
and i dont know why i suddenly feel like this.
but i'll get over it.


"smart ass."
"if you think my ass is smart, imagine the possibilities of my brain."


so my cousin called today and invited me over.
and i was preeetttty damn pissed that my mother wouldnt let me go.
i miss them, theyre probably mad at me now.
in like 2 months, i lost 2/3 things that i treasure most.
you know what, that just 'effin sucks.



well friday i had a hangout day with the girls and jins'.
that was pretty fun, hahaha.
me and jennie had a chance to talk at the pool.
CLAP (:
i couldnt swim, and i wanted to swim so badly
it's been forever since i've been immersed in a body of water (:
ah. that was fun, even though i left early.
at least some part of my life is okay.



gotta let it burn